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confused [20 Aug 2006|09:43am]

[ mood | confused ]

...................sigh....................... so here it goes i like this guy but i just moved over 6 hours away and he still wants to date. i see other guys here who r interested in me but i have a boy friend im so confused HELP ME PLEASE

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Confused [02 Jun 2006|02:08pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Hey Jacintamusica,
I am confused. I saw your blog under my Friends tab in my LJ, did you post that blog under askbelldandy, or you just change your blog settings available to friends/public?

If I set my blog settings to friends/public, that means you guys (friends or public) can see it?

Let me know. Thanks!

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New Member [01 Jun 2006|04:26pm]
[ mood | energetic ]

My name is Alicia and I am new in this community and in Live Journal. Help! Please tell me how to go around this community! TQ

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And yet another thing goes wrong....... [08 Feb 2006|06:14pm]

[ mood | frustrated ]

Okay so me and this guy are pretty much dating..... he likes me and I like him right? nothing could go wrong. Except my freind likes him, and this girl always seems to always like the guy i like and so none of us go for him, the guy i'm pretty much dating and I have had a thing for a year. And my freind has a crush on him, i don't mind but I dcan't date him while she likes him thats happened before and I don't like it. So should I wait till she stops liking him or what?? Please post

Thanks all,
- lisa

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Confessions of a Suburban Slut - look for this book, it will be published soon [01 May 2005|09:49pm]

[ mood | crushed ]

I have a very long story to tell, and it's boring and everyone's sick of me telling it, but here goes. a year ago I was dating this guy named "Jake", and we'd been dating a year before that, the problem was I always screwed Jake over, I always dumped him- found someone new, a few days later, I'd get back with him, Well, the last time I did that I ended up with a year long relationship with "Ian". The first couple months I was cheating on Ian on a regular basis with Jake because, really, I wanted them both. Jake was my first love, my first lover, and the first naked man I'd ever seen. lol. And Ian was new, and clever, and I don't know, but eventually, Jake and I stopped doing stuff, and he moved on and we'd talk on and off about getting back together till eventually he told me he didn't want to be back with me. I thought I was fine with this until recently when I realised I genuinely missed him, this was about the time he became interested in "Cara". He called me and asked me to drive with him and I did, hoping we could resolve some stuff and we could get back together and I could change and become the best gf for him. He told me that night after trying to get me to go down on him numorous times that he was dating "Cara", then he preceeded to tell me he was just seeing if I would do it and he doesn't need me anymore and he's happy. I cried, and he took me home. I called him on Monday and he asked me to go driving with him again, once again he parked in a park and asked me to go down on him. By then I had broken up with Ian, so I figured this was my chance for Jake to realize I cared about him, a lot, because the whole time we dated I never gave Jake head to finish. So I let him do his thing, I swallowed, the most degrading thing I think I could of done, and then he pushed me away and told me he didn't know why he did that, and told me not to tell anyone and pushed twenty dollars in to my fucking face and took me back to my friend's house. Since then he won't take my calls, he won't fucking answer my voice mails, I just want to talk to him... I don't know. I know, he's an ass, and I know I'm a fucking whore, but god, I want to forget him, any ideas? I want this all to be over, and Ian's trying to get back with me, what should I do...? These were the most important people in my life... My friend's are sick of my moping and my obsessive thinking, someone tell me what should I do? I've tried getting really fucked up, nothing's working.

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[29 Apr 2005|09:09am]

i got a friend(guy) who i like and i think he still likes me he did a couple days ago now i don't know. but he and my ex are like best friends. and people are yelling at me (not that i care what they think) to leave him alone. But it shouldn't matter considering my ex and i are still close friends. i just don't understand what to do. i seem to always get into these situations. it sucks. i fall in love way to easiely.
any comfort, or answers welcome. just keep it nice, i'm kinda on the edge right now of breaking down.

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Little help? [27 Apr 2005|12:41pm]

[ mood | confused ]

Okay, here's the thing. I've been doing this  whole thing for a LONG time now. I'm pretty sure I'm in love with 2 people at the same time. Both loves are totally different from the other, but I'm SO confused as to what to do. Neither has an incling of what's going on with the other. I have 2 really close friends who know about them. and they both say that I should get up and go on both acct's. I never meant for me to start dating or fall for one of them. Especially since I'm living with the other. I'll call them Ryan and Jacob.

Ryan is who I am living with. I've dated him for years. 4 to be exact. we broke up and I saw other people for a year and then we got back together. He moved in with me and is currently paying for EVERYTHING so I can go to school. He's a wonderful person now and has changed for the better of all aspects.

Jacob is young. He's actually still in HS. only 4 years younger than me, but a lot more mature for his age. He is EVERYTHING I've ever looked for in a partner, and then some. Sweet, caring, doting, understanding, and not in the least bit jealous. (of course there's more) but we weren't even supposed to get together at all. We've been friends for about a year and, a half. getting to know each other and what not.

The whole reason we got together, was kinda like one of those teen movies. Where you make a bet with someone and then the person finds out and hates you.... well, except that he was in on the bet from the start. Anywyas. I made a bet with a friend of mine that I could do stuff to him w/o him flipping out or going crazy shy. I told Jacob from the get go, there's a big bet about you and I, and I'm not going to tell you exactly what it is but promise you won't be peturbed by it when we tell you. He agreed and said it sounded interesting. We then went parking and I proceeded to do stuff with him. (I'll spare you all the details. Basicly we just made out a LOT)

It was alot of fun and that one night happend again. a couple more times. And finally it progressed to me seeing him almost every day and talking to him several times a day. He knew from the get go that I was adamant about NOT having a b/f. I didn't want one nor did I have time for one. (rather another one) He wasn't pushing the subject though I knew he wanted to. And one night he, my friend Lauren and I had a LONG conversation about stuff and I ended up admitting that I had feelings for him. He almost crapped himself. And from then on pretty much assumed that we were dating.

Our group of friends found out some how, and our friend whom I made the bet with got pissed at me b/c he was upset that I wasn't all to hiself anymore. And I couldn't/wouldn't do stuff with him if I was with Jacob. Which now has torn a rift in our circle of friends.

More complications. The person I was seeing durring the time that Ryan and I were broken up, came home on break, and knew about Ryan. he then told the friend, Alex, about Ryan and now they're scheming a LOT of stuff on what to do to save Jacob from a world of hurt. I don't blame them one bit. I'm VERY glad that they're trying to protect Jacob and that they have only his best interests in mind. But, I'm kinda...i duno about him being so clueless and blind to everything.

He refuses to believe anything they say about me. He insists that if I were lying to him, he'd know b/c he can tell. Which I find kinda amusing where as I am an actress by trade and he knows I'm good at it.  I havn't exactly lied to him. I just havn't told him everything. I've told him this strait out. There's a lot he doens't know about me, and he shouldn't be surprized when he finds out if he decides he doesn't like me any more. He insists he can't NOT like me, and all that jazz.

But thus is my dilemna! What do I do? HOW do I go about doing such?

if I get rid of Ryan:
1. I am not financially stable to support myself and thus loose that. (yes that's really cold but very true and he knows it)
2. I'd have to let him go for good this time and never be able to see him again. and I don't think I could handle that.
3. my friends would be fine with that though a lot of them would say I told you so.
4. I don't think I could handle it emotionally and I'd have another break down.

If i got rid of Jacob:
1. I'd loose an entire circle of friends. (spare me the speach of if they were really your friends)
2. I would crush him totally and I don't really know what he'd do.

and I'm at a loss for more things... most of the things are just feelings that I can't really put words to.... There has to be an easy way! oy! Help? please? Anyone?

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[13 Jan 2005|03:00pm]

Okay now i ahve no clue what si going on. Me and krystel were doing fine. on tuesday she almost got into a car acsident and what rely upset and she hung out wiht ravynblackheart. One of ehre xses she fell asleep In his bed and woke up without him in the bed and she freaked otu couse she had to be home and left for home got home ont ime. the enxt day we talked ont he ohone and thigns were good. chatted a little online told here about work and she seemed upset about somethng and i tried to figure otuw hat it was and she said nothing take it at face value. and ia sked hwta it pretained to aske dif it had to do with me or her and she said no said does it ahve to dow itht he raltionship and she said no. I aske dif it was a big deal would she tell me and she said yes. ia sked how her animles were she said fine i asked hwo thigns were with her mom she said ehhh ia sk di thats waht si wrong she said partaily. i was liek what shedo she said nothign is aid just tell me she said well youc an read my lj about it. i said okay i;lld ot hat btu whyd otny out ell me she said nah. than we talked somemroe and laughed and she gigled. and it was fun than ia ske dher to call em before she went to slee she said okay if i dotn forget so is aid please tyr not to and we got into a little argument about her being busy and nto emanign to forget and is aid i udnerstandand she hung up. so i lyed down and and ebfor ei fele asleep about 1 horu later i got online and found out that she was going away for awile and saw this

Goodbye everyone. I'm going away for a little while. I'm not sure how long though. All I know is that it's for the best. Dont try to call or email, I wont want to talk or write back. I'm glad to know you're all there for me, but i need to find a way to be there for myself. Perhaps I will see some of you around again. If not, I love you, and i'm glad we were friends. Things will get better, it just will take awhile. Dont worry. everything will be fine in the end. I promise. :)

so i freakout and tried to call ehr. i eman how is she goign away for awile and eyt tell me she was going to see me friday it didnt make sens e so i tried and tried ot get ahold of ehr and stil am. and no repsonse yet. she mite be at work thou. and than this mornign i check my lj and find coments liek this

dude, she's not your sweetie, why the hell are you deulding yourself into thinking that things are going to be just peachy with you two? Oh, and I heard what you said about you not thinking that Kit will be safe over here and that you should take care of her. Take it up with me, ok psycho?

or liek this

There is no "him and Krystle." It's just him, Krystle was sick of his shit

WITCH AMKES NOS ENSE WHY WOULD EM AND HER BE FINE. OBVIOUSLY FINE. for the last days and than bam in oen horu all of it change. why. i dont know what the hell is going on anyore. i wish someone would tell me. please somebody tell em whats going on. I feel like i am a fish out of water. i feel lost and alone. pelase somebody tell what si goign on or help me out. please.

her eis whats he has said resintly in her lj

ok. my mom had OFFICIALLY lost it. she told me tonight that she's calling therapists tomorrow, and we argued for a while about anti depressants and what they do to ppl. she's thinks that they dont do anything to ppl and that they're safe and so i told her where i'm 18 i'm an adult and dont have to go and she's all 'well if you wont do it voluntarily we can always do it involuntarily and have you put on a 72 hour watch' I dunno what to fucking do now. I really just wanna run away. i know that wont fix anything but atleast it'll get me away from her. as soon as i get enough money i'm gone for california. I dont care how many jobs i have to work, I'll do it. as long as i can get away and never have to look back!

I dunno what's going on right now. I'm not putting details because i'm hoping to forget this day even happened. After work i spent the evening with ravyn, which cheered me up immensely esp. when his mom gave me the ok for my kitty to live there for a while. I dont know what i would do without them. ravyn's my best friend and his mom is my second mother.
It was weird but reggie was right again. I talked to him tonight and he said that around 8 - 815 my mood would change for the better. i doubted it although i dont know why because his last vague prophecy was true. sure enough while watching a stupid flash movie and laughing my ass off i looked at the time and it was 810. I was speechless for a moment but i'm still gonna call him tomorrow and let him know. lol.
once again being alone has me thinking.. which isnt good. *sigh* i can't wait to see my baby kitty tomorrow. i miss her soo much! tomorrow had better be better or i seriously... seriously have no idea what to do.

and nwo i have tried calling and calling and ic ant get ahold of her and i ahve no clue what is going on at all. help someone. pelase.

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Help!!! [07 Jan 2005|10:39pm]
[ mood | irritated ]

Hello everyone. I am new here and from the looks of it not alot of people write here. But i figured i would give it a try because i have a problem with a friend. so if anyone can help me please do.

I am having a problem with my best friend. I dont know how to get through to her. She has changed alot, her whole attitude. She is lazy, inconsiderate, and full of herself. She bitches about her mom always getting onto her about everything but if she actually did stuff her mom wouldnt bitch. She is starting to get on my nerves. She yells at my husband for now reason, when he tries to tell her to do something so her mom doesnt bitch she starts yelling at him, and i am getting fed up with it. I dont know how to talk to her ive tried writing her a letter. But she still hasnt realized anything yet. She is used to getting her way. She is a spoiled little brat. (And if you read this you can either talk to me or not but either way i dont care. You need to know how everyone feels.) And there was a time when i thought i was pregnant i told her hoping she would listen to me, but all she said was "i dont think your ready" and that was it. She never listens to anything i have to say anymore anything i say always turns into something about her, and its like i never even said anything. I have known her for about 6 years and i love her to death but i dont know what to do about the situation. I hardly talk to her anymore, because she is so full of herself. she thinks that the world revolves around her. If anyone can give me advice please help.


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[04 Sep 2004|01:33pm]

ok. i know this sounds kinda off.... but does anyone know the name of the artist who has created my icon. they are based off of painting done by the artist in whose name i escapes me. but if anyone could help me out with his name i would bever grateful. thank you!!! <3

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Trying to promote a free place for artists to be seen - advice and reviews wanted [23 May 2004|07:18pm]


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provides streaming independent films of many genres from music videos to
3D animation. It is free to watch, and we encourage submissions as well as your thoughts/reviews on these artists' work. Here are examples of what is available on the web site.
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Lowell Northrop
2001- Hollywood, CA
In the year 2001, there were 236 confirmed Bigfoot sightings in the United States.Yet in the same year, there were only 12 confirmed Axl Rose sightings. For the past ten years, one of rock¹s most recognizable figures has been in hiding, and only a handful of people have ever seen him in public.
What does Axl Rose look like now?
How does he dress?
Where does he eat?
Is he more afraid of us than we are of him?

This short film is a collection of actual eyewitness accounts from people who have spotted this reclusive rockstar in recent years.
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Spike Jonze

Chainsaw Kittens Video

1993 - Norman, Oklahoma

Spike Jonze is most widely known as the
director of Being John Malkovich (which garnered three Academy Award
nominations) and Adaptation. One year before making the"Sabotage" Video for the Beastie Boys giving him an international presence, he made this video for the alt-pop act The Chainsaw Kittens.

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2003 - rural SW

Quese iMC

Quese iMC is one of the top native american emcees.He has been working for several years to help create a native american hip-hop movement at a grass roots level. He has been invited to many emcee battles including MTV's NYC battle.

, a Seminole filmmaker from rural Oklahoma was flown to NYC May 20th for promotion for the Sundance Film Festival. Sterlin is one of eight filmmakers to be chosen for this years' Sundance Director's Lab.

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Same old / Difrent day [30 Apr 2004|08:43am]

[ mood | confused ]

Well Okay... I have this plan see i am takeing my ex fianceys stuff up to ehr as some fo ti wa sleft at my house. and going tot ry to talk to her and maybe try and hook back up with her. All ym friends say i am stupid couse of how they say she treated me. but i realy want her back. she was a a vary important perosn to me and vary dear to ym heart... but i ahve bin tryog to get ehr back for nearl 5 months now and it works but doesnt...she comes back than elaves and it goes on liek that thou resintly it has just bina genrle considerationa nd willingness to elast as far as i know. i dont know the whole thign has me nots see my friends wont be my friends anymore if i egt abck with her. and that hurts. and i dotn want to lose them cosue there realy good friends...well most of them. but at the same time i want her back so mutch it hurts. i just dont know what to do. I know she ahs a boy friend and all but maybe i mite have a chance at winning her back but that emans i am stealing her form hima dn he is a good guy and if she is happy with him who am i to tare it a part or mutchless try. but at the same time isnt ignoreing my heart just as bad. i dont know ia m in circles and it hurts alot any one have a sugestion.

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Friends...or are they? [28 Apr 2004|09:10pm]

[ mood | sad ]

I used to have a big group of friends. Quite big anyway. Ok, so last year, my friends were great...infact, last term my friends were, well, i guess you could say, great, at least we stuck together. But just recently, or so it seems to me, everyone started breaking apart. And I have no idea why, which is part of the problem. You know I said the biiig group was sort of splitting, well my problem is.
a.)I don't know why.
b.)I don't know where I stand.
c.)I don't know who hates who, or what. Everyone is giving mixed messages.

First problem is a "friend" (call her 1)who is really starting to get to me. I don't think that one good thing has come out of our friendship for a long time. She is often snappy, and makes me feel uncomfortable at times, by being negative about everything. Also, she is really unreasonable to another friend (2), who is an amazing friend to 1. Like, 1 will make 2 feel as though 2 is leaving 1 out. Which is not true. And many other things. I don't know what to do, because she can be so good a friend, but hasn't been for a while.

Ok, number 2. Group splitting. No idea why.
Me and friend number 3 are very close. Both of us have probably got the least amount of knowledge on the "current affairs" of our "friendship" group. Although she knows more than me. We feel, needless to say, left out. Also, there is a live journal thing, where people read other peoples journals, get angry, and hate each other. I don't know why. I don't know who these people are. I feel like I am trying to butt into peoples lives if I try to find out what is going on.
But I also feel that it is my business.

OK, last one! I feel, (I wonder why) that people don't like me, and I just feel like maybe I am annoying them. But you see it could be this group split thing. It's never happened before. I really need an outsiders opinion. I am so upset. Sad is the word. Immensely sad.

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[02 Apr 2004|12:27am]

[ mood | nostalgic ]

i might have went a little far on the april fools joke with my girlfriend. any advice on as to what all i can do to make up for some of it saturday when we get to see each other?

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[21 Mar 2004|08:35am]

question is there a community where i might help someone in giving advice to others?
i have alot of time on my hands and i think i would be really good at it?

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please help [12 Mar 2004|12:40am]

I have an odd dilemma. Last fall my life seemed to be falling apart. At the beginning of the school year I broke up with my boy friend; while it isn't a big thing now, it seemed to be at the time. A friend of the family committed suicide and I was feeling most depressed. All I wanted to do was sleep, so I wasn't really doing well in any of my classes. I just didn't feel like my life was going any where and I wasn't sure where I belonged.

One night I went out with some of my friends. I only had one drink, so for the most part I think I was fine. But the night was a disaster. We were going to go into a bar and it was five dollars or free with college ID. I left my friends to go get my ID. I realized I was locked out of my car. On top of that my cell phone was locked in my car. I had to ask some random guy to let me use his Cell phone so I could call my dad to ask him to bring me a key. By the time we had that worked out I went to go and find my friends. I found one of them and her boy friend, I explained to them what happened and they seemed to understand. I am not really sure why what happened after this happened. But her boyfriend took off with someone else..and we were to go back to my car and follow them, but they were long gone before we could even get to my car. She started to cry and I waited. But she was avoiding me and slowly I began to feel like a bad guy. I don't know why, but I felt bad. Finally we went to go find him and bring him back. I passed the place at first, which made me feel bad. We picked up her boyfriend and went back to the parking lot to find everyone else.

They got out of the car before I did and as soon as I got out of the car I heard one of my other friends say that she had told them they shouldn't have brought me. I was really hurt by this. Yelled something not very nice at them and drove away. I was upset and I felt like a bad person. I felt bad for leaving my one friend their...but I was too upset to go back. I didn't think that I could go back to my dad's because he would ask me where my friend was. I didn't think I could go back to my mom's because it was late and she would probably get mad at me...she didn't even know I was in town. I felt it would be a bad idea to drive back to school because I didn't think anyone would want to be my friend any more if anyone was my friend in the first place and I didn't think I would be able to handle that. I don't know if it was the lack of sleep, the drink, or the upset, but I decided that it might be a good idea if I just killed myself. Not giving it any second thought I crashed my call into a cement wall.

If it weren't for an off duty police officer I would have died, just after I was pulled out of the car it burst into flames. I suffered cuts and bumps and a broken ankle. And as bad as this all seems I think I have come to terms with this all. I am a happier person. I don't want to die and I try to do my best in school. I know that people love me, my family does. But the problem is that I haven't told anyone that I meant to crash my car. My Mom asked me not long after it happened if I did...but I told her no. I really feel like I need to tell someone but I don't know who. I am afraid that my Mom would be angry with me and want me to pay what ever she had to pay for medical bills (insurance got most of the expense) and I know I don't have that money. I don't want to tell my Dad, because he keeps saying that every time he thinks about how close he came to loosing me he cries and I don't want to hurt him. I don't want to tell my sister because she will just run off and tell both my Mom and my dad. And I don't know how my friends would take it. I have thought about asking my Mom to see a therapist, but I don't see how that would help beyond getting it off my chest. What do you think I should do?

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[07 Feb 2004|09:27am]

i need help..i think my friends anorexia..and i dont know what to do..i keeep on tring to make her eat..but she wont.i am so afraid for her.i constantly woory about tit..cause the reason is she thiks shes fat..when shes not fat..not at all..i dont know what to do..

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[02 Feb 2004|02:16am]

well okay firt of hello. knowing me youl guy will probibly be heraing alo of qustions form me and also in som caes geting alot of help. feel fre to ask me something or rpely to anything isay.

next s ym problemis that i am in lvoe wiht This irl we were together for sevrale motnhs. i want to marry this girl. sh is the lvo of ym life. btu htings got otu of hand we btoh ahd are problems and we ahd a fight. iw ill jut ay it got bad. but after word iw ent ot jail. she contcat em and wnated to ebw ith em and we tlake dand decidd to work thrw thign than we were borken up than abck on again this went onf or the last month. so a few days ago (about a wek afters he told em i nevr evr have a hcance wiht ehr gaian and she is in lvo wih a enw this giy tim) she akf or em back. i ofocurse aid es it was what i anted...he asked me if i ahd thought ata ll abotu atieng anyone and ia dmited ot ahving thought baout dateing but mostly to fill th opvid of miing her o abdly. oyu know looking fo a rbeound girl. and ia hd put a perosnel up. out of desperation to fillt hat painful void...btu int he end i felt worng a thought i ahd cheetd on emi and done somehting horirble. an she was liek okaya dnw were greta than she ask if sh cna see th eperosnle and thrw the no i want it gone and begging to se eit i gave in. and sent her the tlink withc was a paint o fin. so she brakes upw ith em after looking at and nwos ays she doesnt l;ove me liek that any more an this hrits so mutch...i there anythign ic an dot ow in ehr back.

iw ant ehr back so mutch. i lvoe her...and it hink we cna work threw the problems. she seems to be mor ocntent wiht just ebignw ith tim.(who she otld em she didnt relay lvoe and wa jst kidna tellign em that btu wno decides she does lvoe him)

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confused [26 Jan 2004|08:05pm]

[ mood | confused ]

Its a complicated situation but here goes. basically i was dating this guy for 4years . he went away to college and we broke up and i havent seen him in about 6 months.
when we were dating we used to have sex but it was somewhat okay because we loved each other.
i moved in with this guy i knew as a child whom i get along with really well... we have only been going out for like 3 weeks and we have sex all the time .
i am wanting to go to college but i dont know what to take... my friends are all in alberta at the college i want to attend but my ex is there and i wouldnt be going until sept. what about the guy i am living with..
if you could offer any input on the situation it would be a big help

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Torn [19 Oct 2003|01:19am]
[ mood | distressed ]

About three months ago, my boyfriend of five years broke up with me. I didn't give him a hard time about it, as I had been having similar thoughts; but it was still hard, he was my best friend. As upset as I was on the inside, I agreed to take it like a woman, and remain friends with him.
This idea worked well until 2 weeks later, when I discovered he already had a new girlfriend. I guess normally, this wouldn't be so bad, except that: his main reason for dumping me was that he didn't want a girlfriend anymore. He told me he wanted to be "free" and not have to answer to anyone. Being that 5 years is a long relationship for anyone, nevermind a 22-year old, I understood, or so I thought. And now he is with someone new, in a 2 1/2 month relationship and we have been broken up for three months.

So I guess my question is this:
I have been thinking that maybe he met this girl before he broke up with me. I mean, I find it odd that it took him such a short time to find someone new, considering his reasoning, and the fact that I have been having such a hard time meeting people! The thought has really been bothering me, and I really want to ask him if he dumped me to be with her. But it will end our friendship--I don't think I could take it if it were true. And if it isn't, he may become offended that I could think such a thing and not want to speak to me either. So I imagine that I am screwed either way, but I can't stop thinking about how he could have betrayed me right under my nose. What should I do?

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